one sleepless

A tilted cup placed carefully to stand on it's end. Let it fall, but it's never empty. I claimed I knew it. The answer to your question. But you still felt that lonliness. I didn't believe how weak you were. I wouldn't accept someone who needed me, while I stayed desporate.
What exists under you careful dressed skin... I gave a quick diagnosis, and I was wrong. ...sent you on your way. I sent you unprepared. I sent you towards a trap.
I've failed myself, what I believed. I held your trust until it decayed.. twas fragile. thin. was feeble and decrepid.
Of the 86 meetings, 86 hello's, the 86 touches of the cheek, the 86 long stares, 86 quiet moments......
Of them, 3 mattered, 3 will be remembered by me forever. 3 times you've captured me. 3 times I was speechless, 3 times you were strong. 3 times I felt my skin wasn't there.. would you just hold my heart.
Those 3 times.. I slept. Those 3 times which you were a dream. And only those times! only those 3 times were you so powerful. Only in those times did you deserve the control, did you deserve to take care of me.
That was the last time I saw you. We never said our goodbyes in reality.. but there was never a chance was there?
I'll hold my last emotion I had about you... if not I will never remember what exactly you meant to me.
The dreams they don't come anymore.
But I always had the answer my dearest,
only when you died I knew the question,
"Can I be with you forever?"

by. J.A. Wright

Tardy

a poem... i guess

Be awake, and the moment you smell the sun... look to the left. Look for a shadow creeping up the field..... I never knew if I'd miss her. I never knew if I'd missed her.
But it made sense, I had to know.
by JAW~

Phantal

Just waiting for her.. you know, as always. She'll appreciate me, I swear that.

Her smile was a gentle way of saying, "I know you exist, but i don't know if i want that." We were everything to eachother. Such closeness when our lives are moving so fast could only spell disaster.

Drain

Don't take everything so literal

what the Fudge

JAW: you coming back here in may?
Christina: prolly
Christina: brb i have to drop the kidd off at the pool
JAW: alright
Christina: ok
JAW: so quick?
Christina: .yup
JAW: you threw him from the window or something?
Christina: what the kidds?
JAW: yup
Christina: no i already flushed them
JAW: ok now i'm confused lol
Christina: i had to take a shit
JAW: lmao
JAW: i never heard that expression, but i get it now =P
Christina: lol
Christina: hahahaaa
JAW: i thought you had a little nephew or something lol
Christina: i do but i didnt mean it like that

A space between

It was refreshing seeing her again. ...

Lull

As if assuming the future would heal me. I still don't know what to expect. I still have nothing to tide the emptiness. I thought I had the answer, but it's like the weather.

I know I can not wait forever for it to change. I do not want to wait for tomorrow, what I need to know today.